Wild and Brilliant.

Shoulder to shoulder, hips to hips.
Come hither, come hither.
If it doesnt kill you, it makes you stronger.

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11.35 am:
Couldn't drag myself out of bed this morning despite the several phone calls and 3 alarm clocks.

Anyway, I've got a playlist on my livejournal now ha ha happy ~ And Andrew texted me this morning from Australia which was so cool cuz well, I never texted anyone overseas before. Very amazing. He's in Gold Coast right now, which is one of my favourite childhood playground. Mum decided on no family holiday this year because we're tight on cash, so yeah, for once I'm gonna be spending early december in Singapore. Lost my job for the Christmas week, I think its a blessing in disguise. But still I better start looking for another job asap. Maybe I'll go out today and get myself interviewed before I pierce my ears.

Hokay, I'm going to get started on my assignments first. Talk laterrrr !

2.34 pm:
Had an interesting conversation with crackwhips and clementcher . I'm sick of eating instant noodles for lunches. Wish I had Nature Valley oat and honey bars to crunch on now.

Anyway, here's a look I created:
Love the drama on the top and the punch of colour of the scarf. I would wear this with black stockings in real life but since its an editorial, I threw in some funk to cut down on the classics.

Too much, non ? Its a love hate.

Date with Alphamale and Alphahamster @ 330 I'm off to go dig through my wardrobe.

I hate the scars on my leg that my allergy gave me. I wish they were something cooler like a motorcycle engine burn or something. I have long one from a fall off a bike though. But I'm just thankful that I'm not deformed or something, I'm way more blessed than other kids born ugly.

Then again, I'm quite excited by the fact that I have an allergy. Not everybody has one you know, so its special k.!! Although, I have no idea who or what is the bitch that's destroying my skin. I dont like it neh neh. Its been months !!

I've also realised after blogging SO MUCH today, I haven't posted up a single recent picture of me. Shall go take some tmr, good night yall now virtual hugs !! xoxoxo.

Thursday:
Thursday we got to skip classes to go down to Expo and help out in the Standard Chartered Race Pack collection thingy, was so sleepyfied because I had to wake up SUPER early. Almost felt like secondary school days again walking in the cold morning wind. It was so cold I don-ed a knit and jeans. I slept all the way to Expo, and continued sleeping while I was sitting/standing there waiting for orders. Me and Taufiq ended up helping the Nature Valley boys because we're bored with our post and they looked like they needed lots of help. Quite fun, we thought of "creative design ideas" and made the whole job for them boys so much easier. I have a slash on my finger from being reckless with penknife, I think all of us got injured at some point of time slashing away with penknifes at the boxes. And Nature Valley oat and honey energy bars are awesomely nice !!!!! I shall 'kope' more tmr, designers need this kind of shit to keep us alive during submission days.

Anyway, I was quite surprised at the crowd. The runners came in all sorts of shapes and sizes, corporate women in towering heels, hunks with biceps and bengs and fat chicks and those champion runners from kenya and the french and the americans and even babies!!! I even got fooled by the looks of the two Nature valley boys we helped, they are like 3 years younger than us, and I thought we're probably the same age. At least they were nice boys, real friendly and interesting to work with. It got my mood up and while we thought it was lame at first, we got into the hype of things and started dancing in the hall to the random songs. Super fun ! Everytime we hear a song come on me, Taufiq, Syaza, Fan and Chloe would scream and jump up and start dancing. Hahaha can't wait to dance again tmr.

After work I overslept on the train later and ended up missing my dental appointment again! Then I had to rush down to thomson to check on a new girl that was working at Lazygourmet and train her. I'm super nice please, I did all the washing and let her go like one hour early. Clement came down for quick dinner with me, real nice. We're spending too much money on cab and food dear one!!!

Friday:
This is exciting !! Me, Clement and Nicky are going to get our ears pierced after work today. I'm thinking of doing my tragus, and completing the 5 holes, which means 3 more piercings. Can't wait, i hope they heal before mum notices them.

04
Two beautiful dresses from Urban Outfitters that I really liked on first sight !


So lovely !

And this week's favourite song on replay: there's isnt any video though, just listen to the audio.
Its super meaningful in a whole lot of surprising ways.

Calendar Girl - Stars


If I am lost for a day,
try to find me
But if I don't come back,
then I won't look behind me
All of the things that I thought were so easy
Just got harder and harder each day

December is darkest and June is the light
but this empty bedroom
won't make anything right
While out on the landing
a friend I forgot to send home
Who waits up for me all through the night

Calendar girl who's in love with the world
Stay alive
Calendar Girl who's in love with the world
Stay alive

I dreamed I was dying as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there
please don't let me die

But I can't live forever, I can't always be
One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea
The pages keep turning
I'll mark off each day with a cross
And I'll laugh about all that we've lost

Calendar Girl who is lost to the world
Stay Alive
Calendar Girl who is lost to the world
Stay Alive

January,February,March,April,May I'm alive
June,July,August,September,October I'm alive
November,December, yeah all through the winter, I'm alive

I'm alive.

03
More stuff for Christmas !
- Pyjammies !
One of my all time favourite put togethers : White tank + Pyjamas pants !
I never liked jammies tops much, those are too much to walk around town in though knowing myself its nothing big.



- Ikea !
Who doesn't love Ikea when it comes to organisation and living ideas ! One of my absolute favourite places for inspiration, here are a couple of peeks out of their catalog.

Pretty dining tables !

Love storage boxes best !

I dream of little houses like these almost every day, racks for my shoes for all to see, and matching coats above them.


-Nude lippies !
Have always wanted to try out one. My first lipstick will be this creamy one from MAC in NUDE.


I'm in PMS mode now, let me rant here for random nothings for abit to get it out of my system okay ? :
( We're swinging on high, we're dipping low, we're touching our toes. )

Today I had a long thoughtful busride on the way to school.

It was a lovely day, coupled with project stress as usual but what really made my day was that I got to meet up with Bernard, Elbey, Clement, Nicky and KC too for an awesome dinner at Sushi Tei @ Thomson. Food there is the bomb, we ordered like an entire table of drool worthy food and it was so fun catching up with the cousins and seeing everyone else again. Later, we popped by Castle Low and played old school games like Halo and Gears of War. And I learnt how to play poker too ! Epic " Paranomal Activity" moment in the bedroom, my scream chilled everyone's bones. Turned out to be a HUGE beetle after all. To think back about it. the beetle was all emerald on the outside and when you flipped it over, it was a shiny metallic red underneath. Elbey suggested wearing it as a necklace.

So tired now, quick post before I sleep.

02

I don't have visuals for now but to add to the Christmas list, here's a list of hopefuls that will really brighten up my day.

-From Ikea, Kikki k and Muji :
Storage boxes, Jars, Mini cabinets, Jewellery holders, Desktop drawers etc, basically things to keep my stuff neat yet pretty.

-More lingerie, and boy shorts.
I'm a total melt for lingeries, I think they are the most expensive things in my everyday outfits. La senza used to have awesome bras that were so pretty and soft I bought like 2 of each kind ha ha ! Pity their knickers never seem to fit me. Its too big ! Shall get more lingerie sets this Christmas. And boy shorts too. Absolute favourite piece of garment.

-Sleep.

Oh did I mention something interesting happened today. Hated leggings for ONE ENTIRE YEAR because girls simple didnt know how put on proper shorts or wear longer tunics to hide their ass. So disgusted with that notion. But I actually thought of wearing leggings today (Black solid full footed ones from Topshop), for once, because I made a top for myself that only look good with leggings hahaha. Plus I bought myself a new pair of boots so I'm all for the idea of wearing wilder colours now, so fun !

Clement was horrified when we're lazy shopping in thomson today and I picked out an animal printed legging ha ha ha.
Of course I didn't buy it.

My favourite month of the year arrives ! There is some beautiful magic in the air today. My presentation went superb, because I over-worked on my slides hahaha so all that stress for nothing ! I found out like 5 mins before class started with a great big shock that 1) I won't have any notes to read from. 2) I over did too much research for the powerpoint and its supposed to be under 5 mins ! So I had to delete all the info, cropped out everything and summarise my 6 hours work into 5 mins. Still, I'm only too happy that my design idea went well, if not at least better than the other classmates doing the same topic.

I'll be posting lust worthy items and maybe couple of outfit put togethers for each day as a special count down for me. While I take my pick virtually pampering myself, its a sunny day today ! Catch a healthy tan before Christmas and don't forget your sun block, you don't want to risk looking like a burnt Turkey aye.

Wonders of Christmas, how absolutely lovely.

01

I've been looking for 6 months but I haven't quite found any maxi dress in emerald or jade yet ! Really hope I can spot one soon, I've been planning this as my birthday/ christmas dress since... the day I thought of it. I'm even tried widening my scope by including all sorts of wild crazy floral prints. I would usually hate chiffon, would prefer the softness of cotton and satin, but 22 more days !! Anything goes now just to get myself a nice proper dress.

This pair of Cocobelle black leather lace up cleo sandal would be the perfect sandal for my dress.




Ordered these two from ASOS via Samantha who's coming back from York to Singapore soon with my shopping ! Too excitted. ^ ^

PS: If you don't mind, I rather not put all these babies under cut.

In about two weeks, my two favourite boys would be leaving their pet cat cold hungry and pitifully stuck in Singapore for about... 7 days ?!

Sigh, time to stock up on the cat food.

I got "fired" on my second day of work cuz I didn't get my injections completed, and I told the truth and got my boss into trouble because I didnt, or rather, wasnt told to cover up for them. Ironically, Clement came in again with a surprise for me, and a surprise for himself too as he saw me packing up. I burst out into peals of laughter when I saw him, he had a matching shirt to compliment the daisy and a lovely note he bought to brighten up my otherwise mundane work shift. Thanks baby. Still, once I settled the drama in the office, assuring the lady that I totally understand her hoo-haaed actions, we headed out for an unexpected date that Clement was visibly very very pleased about. So please he forgot he was sharing his lunch with me (again) and happily finished all the noodles while I was eyeing the ice creams much to my dismay.

Had a sleepy busride to the gay barber where I experienced first hand the curiously interesting repetitive barber and the pain of walking in heels on a muddy rainy day. We had our hair cut and I redyed my hair a tint lighter. I MISS MY ASH COLOURED HAIR. Still, this don't look too bad, healthier to say the least since all the bleached parts are masked by reds and browns. My poor hairdresser was at war with my locks, they kept getting tangled in the brush and he gave up trying to curl my hair. " It's dead ", he announced its death in chinese.

Okay I really miss my bleached ash hair, but there isnt a way to achieve that beautiful colour without bleaching. ):
Anyways,Clement's picking me up soon !!!!! Zoom zoom and away from school. At least this is one boy I can count on not to deport me to Jurong. *ahem.

Lovely morning, with a dash of ache in the head.
Thinking about homework is screwed up.

Had my first day at work yesterday with multiple unnecessary shocks. Life's so dramatic seriously, its almost unbelivable but trust me, its exciting sometimes. Pfft. Aside being one very lost sheep yesterday (yes, I lost my tail somewhere in the freezer), I had a lovely surprise with Andrew and Clement surprising me at work, I suspect they both came down to laugh at my stupid hat actually. Nevertheless, I thought it was rather funny how they were surprised to see the other. Certainly made the hours shorter. Aye, I wouldnt have taken up this job offer if not for the bloody good pay and a pretty nice boss. Never though I'll become one of those aunties that kids always pace back and forth in front of hoping to get more samples. Swear I once feed this group of kids more than half my pot. They loved the meatballs.

I really surprise myself.
I'm supposed to be slogging my guts out in Topshop in the shoe department and telling girls the shoes look better on me really but its okay, buy the damn thing and give my misery pay. I hope you fall. * Cackles.

Who
is this strange new boy that I once loved.
Pray tell me.
Impatiences spoilt the cook.

6 hours in the nude and you sleep oblivious to everything else.

While on tumblr, I just couldn't help but put myself in shoes of others.
and wonder if I'll be missing you as much as they're missing their lovers.

If I ever had a crush on somebody I've never met before, Victor's got my heart racing.
It wasn't his body that I fell in love with, surprise surprise it was the last photo that first caught my breath in my throat (the others subsequently did more than that). Something so magical about him. 190 cm, dark blonde, and bluish green eyes and that hair, perfect.

Such a weak thing for boys who can sing and defined facial features.

Weak. Oh boy.

The strangest things fill my head as I draw. And it's only in that mode, I write the strangest things that are true. Like how lies makes sense. And I find perfect pictures with perfect words to tell stories. And I post it up. And I like to wonder if that maybe be lies that are true,
or truth that are lies.

I don't really like this persona. It's creeping me out how it actually, is me.
Personality. Is this some sort of artist depression, or just blatant realizations.

Cold hands, warm skin.
Not obvious enough ? The game continues.
And the rule of the game is: Don't Ask.

I'm playing with your mind, twirling it with my fingers, choking you.

She lies,
fills up with cold lies, but
Her skin is warm.

She'll only smile,
and pretend.
It's not visual.
Her skin is warm.

She watches,
as you
touch.
Her skin is warm.

And clothe the truth bearer with denial.

TO A BIRTHDAY BOY:

Dear Christian,
LIKE OH MY WORD YOU'RE EIGHTEEN TODAY SQUEALS. This calls for a *ahem* celebration !! Man, I was getting all excited talking to you on msn just now its been such a long wait aye. Next year's my turn !!!!! Anyway, I don't usually do birthdays on livejournal but for you, special k !! It's been exactly one year since I met you. And I must say we had lots of good times together. Exploring creepy places with the livejournal gang, shopping topman, going mad over sales, spent thanksgiving together too making snow and blowing balloons for the party, watching you do your hair for the very first time, what honour !!! I think I really got to know you better through Blizzard too, it was such an amazing camp really being in the same group with all the rest of the awesome people. All the army paint and make up, all the retro hairstyles, all that gel on your head during retro night. Not to forget thanks for inviting me to the t10sex all night chalet, chilling at esplanade gardens what so ever.

It's going to the heck of a thrilling ride this eighteenth year and besides all the partying hard you have to do, please, take care too. You used to text me take care messages when im about to do something crazy and now its my turn to tell you to watch out ! Its not all glitz and glamour living the high life and I know inside the havoc you, there is still that soul that longs for more. Don't lose yourself, or else I'll be losing a really good friend and i'll be really sad la. Cant wait to see you tmr its been such a while we hanged out !! Alright I'm getting long winded hahaha. Hope you get to see this soon birthday boy ! So exciting ~

Happy Eighteenth Christian !! You're much <3333 loved !

Here's what's happening:

Geek is out.
Met up right after the last papers to go and shake out the stress, we had sushi, watched drunk boys make fools of themselves, walked aimlessly around his front yard, had strange non academic jokes to laugh at, ice cream for supper and the best part ? Clubbing in the mrt. I think exam stress overloaded. See eyebags. Muggersxcoreftw. Thank you for being an alarm clock / muggerstress buddy. Its going to be so weird not seeing you lug around your sec 3 bag now.

ps: And if you're reading this, we forgot to pick up that one dollar coin omg ! There goes shoe/sushi fund.

It's funny how the weirdest people can make me laugh in the morning, I think I'm too tired.. Been facebooking and drawing since midnight, progress is super slow because I'm hungry and there is only ONE packet of kimchi noodles left and its super precious, i stashed it like....... ages ago only to be eaten for breakfast. My kongpupanda's got a virus ):

Oh, and this month's been really static at school. Its a good subject but I'm wayyyyy behind deadlines. The first thing I'm going to do when I finish all my assignment:
Paint my nails.



That's right. And start on my healthy lifestyle plan.

AND BUY MORE SHOES. enough of threats.
(I have my eye on you, Do Not Try To Escape.)

Did i mention that it's November already ? Wow.

All good things are wild and free.


No one says I'm beautiful like you do
They say a million things, they can say a million things
This pale faced beauty, streaked with dirt and dust.
Her hair the dark waves of the sea, catching sunlight.
She laughs, she stumbles, there is something in her eyes.
Still, no one say I'm beautiful like you do.
She runs along, she runs along.
We are always running for the thrill of it, thrill of it. 
Catch me, I'm falling down.
Catch me, I'm falling down.
Rolling off moss and snow.

Butter on wednesday was real good, we had 4 girls in the group which is a new record, though the number of guys still sadly pwned the number of girls. Some serious sausage party going on. Bernard was damn hot in his new gears and I'm so proud of him !!!! Hahaha. Since we started early, we had lots of drinks and I would say almost everyone was high and happy. Some hooking up going on behind the scenes I noticed. Then some major drama happened thanks to yours truly again and everyone had to look for a lost angsty cat. The night ended late with battle scars and I crashed at Sam's. I need to clarify one thing and that is I did not make out with A !!! Omg whoever said that need to get glasses. That poor guy got into trouble after trouble with bouncers and angry looking people for "not treating a lady nice" hahaha when all he was trying to do was an attempt to sober a cat up. Nicky, as usual popped his cute hamster face in at the most awkward timings before bouncing off to find more smokes.

Woke up in the morning with a headache, and a spoilt phone. Baby woke us up by being a noise at the door scratching away with all her might. She was so cute, walks all over you prodding for a soft spot before sighing and curling up to sleep next to you. Lazed in bed for abit texting everyone and replying messages before grabbing a shower and heading out to Macs for breakfast ! The sun was glorious when we left so we're planning to swim/tan before I leave for school but alas, it rained hard by the time we finished breakfast. What nonsense weather. Watched a confusing episode of gossip girl, played with baby, and skyped with Samantha who was happily clubbing away in York. Thats about it all minus drama details which I'm tired of repeating so, here are photos !



































Ah okay its 4 am lol, time for bed !!! Bye bubbles.

A leather jacket
A pair of flat leather military boots (Found: $213 from Topshop !!!)
A pair of strong black heels.
A cut out body con dress

School finally ended slightly past 9pm. Took a slow busride to town, lugged along my heavy bags to carrefour, picked up a box of plain cereals and paid. $3.20, with a free astro boy toy. I trudged home, each step weighing more than the last. As I caught a glance at myself in a mirror, I sighed. Black stained the rims of my tired red eyes. I took double the time I needed to get home, checked the letterbox for the warning letter. Nope, no signs of any. Mum must be home.

Yells ensued from within the house. I kicked off my shoes, dropped the box of cereal in the kitchen and let my bag slide from my shoulders to the floor with a loud thump. I walked right past the tussle and noise, and locked myself in the room. For a moment, silence surrounded me. I closed my eyes, fingers working to unbutton piece by piece, letting the clothes fall to the floor in a heap. I sat, clad only in my black boy shorts. A lone metal bracelet hung loosely on my wrist. I breathed. In, out. Take a deep breath. In, out. I opened my eyes, pulled my hair into an updo and leaned back against the cold wall. Pulling in my knees to my chest, I didnt want to move. My shoulder ached from the weight, already I could see the slant in my left shoulder bone. My back tensed with pain, I murmured in agony. My body crying out for a good massage. Muffled yells seeped through the gaps under the door, hurting my ears. I massaged my temples.

God knows how long I took detaching myself this time.

Thank God Sam's letting me stayover at his place for a change tmr. It will be a good change.
Need to shake everything out at Butter tmr, vent frustrations, break legs.

Bowl of cornflakes and milk, back to work now.

Today, was quite the awesome day. Even if its rained, because it gave me like..extra 15 mins to grab macdonalds for lunch so I wouldnt be hungry for the rest of the day. I'm back to eating almost normally again, thats 5 meals a day thing. Waking up for some sneaky action is quite the motivation mhmm I like. Italian class was getting... scary towards the end because I didnt understand a single shit so I switched off and texted away on my phone instead. I'm totally being random today hurray its the "feel good do stupid things" mood you know. Spammed facebook walls Nicky is the new alphahamster. My cafe is restored from being "imploded", actually, I don't even know the meaning of that word. Except that its something the Alphahamster and Bambi would screech whenever their cafe ka-boom.

This excitement inside of me is going to go kaboomzah seriously, what the hell why is everyone asleep so early tonight ): no love. pfft.

Honestly, I have forgotten what a date feels like. What first-times feels like. What a stranger smile feels like. What falling in love feels like. I'm tired of predicting things, tired of routines, restless from the still, lonely from the voids, hesitant about settling down. One boy after another, searching, seeking for a better adventure.. Yet I don't want anything to be perfect, because perfect, would simply mean The End.

You know what I need right now ? Nothing more than some speed. Date a racer, go out for a furious spin, scream in agony, pain, excitement, whatever. We'll probably end up in a car crash but nothing's worse than sitting here in this house. 

Which girl doesn't want to dress up for someone, for dates again ? Forget the mock frustration at not having anything to wear. We have lots of dresses, pearls, perfumes and shoes, you name it we've got it.

Just nowhere to go.

 
"Backstage at her Prada show, Miuccia Prada said optimism is a choice, so count us in on the side of  positive thinking. Spring 2010 certainly brings plenty of bright thoughts. A new sense of pretty, with clothes that are special, intricate and intelligently designed... (A) good reason to start looking at spring with a sense of renewed hope." - Mark Holgate, The Vogue Guide Spring 2010

Are these hopes ?

It must be the change in weather that got me seriously digging through Spring's 2010 trend reports and runway shows. There's a nice cool breeze blowing about today and its bright and sunny yet, not humid and warm like the previous months had been. Christmas isnt even here yet and I'm already thinking about spring. Love the trends on the runway now, I hope no one makes it over worn- like how they did to the Balmain jackets, what a pity really because they looked so yummy with all the grungy metals and my absoulute favourite, sharp shoulders !! I would really have loved to own a piece myself if not for the spawnage of copycat girls wearing the same thing everywhere. Do people not get bored and tired of being followers?

Anyway, my clothes have been disappearing from my cupboard. Like, Im not even kidding. HALF are missing and horrors of horrors my sister just walked into the kitchen fully clad in MY CLOTHES WHAT THE HELL. 

PS: Sherrie Tan if you're reading this, you better wash every single piece and return them to my cupboard neatly or I won't be talking to you for a very long time.

Been in and out like nobody's business for the past few... weeks. Hm, time to do something drastic to myself. Need to get out of this skin and go crazy crazy, admist singles night on monday, waffffles (yes its back !) on tuesday, wednesday at butter and friday at zouk.. for a fashion show ,you dimwits, before you start judging me again. Party later, promise me this is only the start. This is not wonderland anymore. I've grown a cat tail, I've started sleeping slightly earlier and waking up before 10 am which is a huge improvement because I've forgotton how beautiful mornings are. 

I'm so going to fail Italian, skipped 2 classes and the next Im out, why is a pretty language SO HARD TO LEARN ?! 
And my camera ? Its on a well deserved break. Probably should start shooting again soon, I've lose weight, hurrray !

*FAINTS

 Near death scenario, but it was just the kind of breather I need.
I only hope it doesn't change anything. 

School's out for the weekend and Ive been missing everyone so badly. It was a treat to let out with andrew, have clement picking me up from school every night, see the cookout gang on friday ( big love y' all ! ) and come sunday I would be lazing by the pool with the waffle gang. Italian classes are so stressful, I really feel like breaking down mid lessons but I told myself this term Ive got to be stronger. Been sleeping alot more than usual but I really need it. I still miss mornings but late nights are getting better. 

And one more thing, Thank you.

I'm sorry, I think Ive forgotten what it is like to love.

Wednesday was damn awesome, director's comm wasn't that bad as I thought. Starbucked and did a little bit of homework before going off to play lan with Andrew, there's like some new map on L4D is its quite cool hahaha. Except that we died in stage one, damn. Went home to laze around for a couple of hours before heading down to butter, and for once I was right at the front of the queue because there was barely anyone at 10 pm ! The usual gang pangsehed and pigged at home, so we ended up with some seniors and random friends and a whole bunch of strangers sharing tables and drinks and what nots. Sat around chatting about everything and anything, boy wasnt it nice to have a table for once in an empty bump, there wasnt even anyone at the bar for the first half an hour so we just spammed housepours. By the tenth glass, we're all good and gone so we headed off to dance. And I think we danced for million hours because by 2 am I was breaking up and getting to the couch was probably the longest trip ever. A bunch of really nice guys in white shirts guided me somehow and got me water to sober up and tried to ask if I was okay but I think I gave some retarded answers. I totally regretted wearing heels that night it was fucking exhausting.

Went home and cooked kimchi noodles. Its the bestest instant noodles ever, I eat it like... every single night. I know, so unhealthy right but its really super nice ! I had interrupted rest and was so stoned in Italian class, alright enough ranting Im off to bed right now, so damn tired.

Promise pictures tmr or something k.

Barely into the 2nd day of school and Im already kinda, half dreading it.
1) I can't draw figures for nuts, I get so upset over my sketches, I don't even want to draw anymore.
2) I have to be in school by 8.30 am on wednesday for my director talk meeting..
3) and my next class starts at 6 PM !!
(which is a 7 hour break, or more, inbetween director's meeting and class)
4) AND ENDS AT 9 PM !!!!!!
5) and I have to rush down to butter by 930 pm after that.
6) and I have to carry all my sketchbooks and italian textbooks.
7) = OH NO ~ !!!!!!!!!!! :(

They should just cancel all classes on wednesday. 
The thought of carrying so many things to butter makes me go URGH.

The only thing that actually cheered me up a little is the fact that COPIC MARKERS ARE NOW A COMPULSORY THING FOR CLASS hello new babies !!!!!! come to mummy you expensive little darlings.
 

 Anyway, I just read boyfriend's post about shopping yesterday and shoes and all and yes, I'm still feeling super guilty.
Here are reasons why:
1) Shoes ! Yes I love them but my mum doesn't. And just so you know, she makes me pack all my shoes into stacked boxes = MY SHOES WILL BE SUFFOCATED !!!
2) Plus they are made of suede = extra TLC.
3) $199 !!!! What am I doing even thinking about it ?
4) What if I hate them one month from now ?
5) Spring is in 2 months, Summer in 6. I should be buying sandals !!

Ah fuck it. they are a pathetic 2 inches only.
 

 I'm really really nervous about school reopening. I hated school last semester, really. Hate is a strong word but I cant find any other words to describe how I felt. Never in my entire life have I felt so irritated with myself. I've always loved school since I was little, so why this ? 
 
Talk about being a social moth. Sigh, gotta grit my teeth and be strong. 
So sick of routines.
 

When I was in secondary school, I saw this in someone's notebook.
"Love is bullshit, don't commit."

If its true, I'll probably never get married. Big angst.

 Seriously, am I a hard core gamer or what.
2.24 am and I'm now hiding in my bed playing Castle Age because dad got furious and chased me out of the kitchen.

I've been blogging much on tumblr and its an awesome place seriously Im addicted to the dashboard lol. No pictures cuz I left my camera behind with bernard after fleeing from Butter last wednesday :/

On a side note, do you think Mum will let me have a cat ?
Also, what should I wear tmr ???
Have to decide before I sleep because Im surely going to be late again for date tmr grawgh.

Shall level up to 14 before I sleep, fighting with dragons is seriously not making me much moneyz hai. :/ 


 

 

 

I've decided that Im a cat person, not saying that dogs will go to dust and horses will fade its just that Im quite a cat myself and other than my zara boots which Im furiously saving up for (!!) I cant stop thinking about getting a kitten. A kitten because its going to be a new life for both of us and for as long as it alive, I will love it with all my heart even if becomes fat, old and scruffy. 

Before I turn in for the night, here are more similarities between a cat and me (:
- Likes napping atop homework
- Playful, enjoysa good snuggle / catnap
- Enjoys fish
- Like having our hair /fur brushed
- Wanders about looking for adventure.
- Look weird when we sneeze
- Purr in satisfaction
- Enjoys time by ourselves
- Ignores any extra attention
- Demands for attention when we want it.
- Cat calls
- Hiss and bite when upset
- Enjoys sitting by the window
- Likes an occasional pat on the head
- Likes treats
- Hate getting our feet wet
- Enjoys a nuzzle

I could go on and on and on... Miaow.
 

 

Tumblr is awesome it keeps me happy makes me happy fills me up with happy.
Its nice not to have to think about anything else except making myself happy, for once.

What a wonderful peaceful day.
 

 

Angsty's over. Thank you for being a listening ear kimchisam, I feel (almost) as frothy as a speck of bubble now.
I think I've got it., amongst that, I'll be cheerful. I promise myself. A girl mustnt frown too much.

And you, yes you. I'll figure you out one day. We'll start tomorrow.

Today we stole sausages, tried on halloween costumes and finally found the awesome japanese rice seasoning.


Was in a miserable mood because shopping was a failure. I ended up spending ALL my money on food.
FFFFF.

Awesome possum day though I was quite drained seeing how I slept only 3 hours after returning home at 6 am in the morning much to the rage of the mother. Today Alphamale and I decided to do some cooking together so we met for grocery shopping and headed back to my kitchen for lunch. I started off with chopping and boilling potatoes for his dish and after taking this picture, I happily showed my potato city to clement:

He suddenly exclaimed that he only needed 2 potatoes, and to my horror I realised I had happily chopped up 5 potatoes instead.

Alphamale quicky whipped up his delicious mushrooms and sausages combo on the stove and tsk-ed at me still stuck at step one of making applesauce: Peeling the skin off the apples. So he took over and quickly did it in under 5 mins, that was Amazing ~ I proceeded to chop them on the chopping board and the following conversation took place:

Me, struggling the apples.
"Why is it so hard to slice the apples into half?"
"You're lousy la, come let me."
(The knife gets stuck in the middle stubbornly refusing to cut through the core)
Clement stares quizzically at the apple and proceeded to attempt to divide the apples using only sheer force.
"Do you know you can divide an apple by just using your hands?"
"I know, but it doesn't look like its working is it ?"
"I'll just shave off from the sides, you need them in small pieces anyway."
(A huge dark coloured circular shaped seed like thingy looms into view as he shaves off the sides of the apple.)
Clement sniffs suspiciously.
"Omg baby its a peachhhhhh ! You bought peaches !"
"Heh............."

Epic failure, there went our applesauce and potato + apple salad so we attempted peach sauce instead but it was horrible tasting because I added too much water. Anyway, check out Alphamale's awesome dish with oozey yolks and jam over potatoes and sausages and delicious garlic mushrooms yum-my completed with campbell. Should have taken more pictures but I forgot !

After cooking, we're so shagged out we fell asleep on the floor. 
It was a really fun day none the less. (: moar moar moar !